I am so glad that my kids have each other to love when they are older and we are gone. I can see it when they play. I watch them and think of myself when I was younger and how I related to my siblings. Finnegan finds a nice shiny toy to play with and Manny swoops in and takes it, leaving Finn crying (or biting, you never know which one your gonna get with Finn). Or when I am showing someone other than Everett affection and he feels the need to scream and push whoever is in my lap out of it. But all that will eventually turn into support and kindness, I hope. I know it doesnt always work out that way, but Im hoping the strong bond I have with my sisters is genetic ;).
One of the things that triggered this "emptiness" of sorts, is finding out that my youngest sister is going to have a baby! What could be anymore exciting than that? Twins? Lets hope for her sake that theres only one bun in the oven. Otherwise Im buying her a lifetime supply of tylenol and kleenex. She will make such a wonderful mother, wether she knows it or not yet. It has been instilled in us since we were little how important family is, and how we need to stay close and connected. Which is one of the reasons its so hard for me to be away from them.
I want my kids to know their kids, and I want to babysit for them, and have wine with them, and go shopping with them. We have to much of a bond to be so far apart. But, alas, this is the case for us. What to do about it? I guess for now I will just have to keep them on the phone for hours at a time, making them listen to me tell them about what Everett had for dinner, and how Finnegan was trying to ride the cat like he was a horse, or how Manny talked for eight straight hours about Bumblebee and Optimus Prime.
I miss them, but I also know that no matter how far apart we are, or how long we go without talking on the phone, we will never loose the love we have for each other, or the strong bond we share thanks to our Mother. Love you guys!!